it feels good to just lay down , put earphones in and dub it out. it feels good to have all the worries go away and fade in the music. it’s been a rough 2 months or soo , i was holding all my problems in and it was destroying me. i’m glad ive gotten everything together and ive became stronger . all the bad decisions i made just to run fron my problems was stupid . ive lost some things in the past 2 months on this journey but i needed time for myself to figure out me . ive cried many nights , ive thought of dying. i let things get the best of me . well not anymore.
you ever made a bad choice , treated someone wrong , or forget what really mattered ? i feel like the world came crashing down on me. for the longest time , i was blinded to believe that i made someone happy when truly they were miserable. i fall for the words people say to me because of the fact that i think they care. i know in my heart i can treat someone right , if they give me the chance and as long as they accept me for who i truly. i lost myself but i know who i am now . kirsten grace , a talented , smart , funny , dorky at times , down to earth girl. who isnt worried about what others think anymore.
everytime i try to talk to you , you have a attitude and i dont know what to do. if i dont talk to you then its a problem because im not telling you how i really feel. i just wish you be real like you used to be babe .. get mad when someone else likes me , make sure everyone knows im just yours. i want my over protective and jealous girlfriend back. i love you but sometimes i feel as though you dont care .
its hard to show someone that you love them when they lie to you. its like everytime i turn around you just tell half of the story.
as i saw the tears run down your face , i felt my heart crack. i never wanted to hurt her. the kiss .. it made me feel how i did when we used to all the time. when you held me and i listened to her heartbeat it felt real and our fingers still fit perfectly. its obvious love is there but we let it slip. i dont have much time to decide before the plane ticket is made but i truly love her. just hope she loves me back. please let me know something.
i dont need sad statuses or love quotes . i look in the mirror and just see a girl . not a broken girl , not a hurt girl .. a girl . i spent a year saying “i love you” to a girl who all along just wasnt that into it , no matter how much she claimed . as of today she walks around as if she is happy and like i never existed . love ? no , you dont walk away. love .. you dont find anothr that can compare. the long nights , kisses , cuddling , laughs , watching movies , family time .. that doesnt fade away. but once i saw how you just moved on .. the tears dont fall anymore. if something comes back it was yours if not , it was never there.
i’m not holding on anymore and i’m okay. but i just wanna know , do you feel good that you already have someone new ? does that make you feel good ? is that the only way you can make it , calling someone else your baby? well it doesnt hurt me anymore because i know i meant everything and you didnt. wont hurt today and wont hurt tomorrow. sure , the memories are still there but if you love someone it wouldnt go away. not today , not tomorrow will i cry over you.